Monday, January 6, 2014

nursing notes.


Wyatt is getting to that age now where he could possibly sleep for longer stretches through the night, but for now he is still waking up 2 or 3 times to eat. Of course it will be nice when he is sleeping more through the night, but I know as soon as that happens I will miss those moments when it's just him & me while the rest of the world sleeps. A few times I've had some really sweet experiences that are so special to me, and I've written them down in my phone, which I am soo grateful for. I already can't wait to read these again in a few years from now. Breastfeeding has had its challenges, but it has been even more rewarding, being Wyatt's sole source of nourishment & comfort. Below are some of my "nursing notes". (I'm kicking myself for not specifying the date I wrote these down. Lesson learned!)

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Earlier this evening I laid his head over my shoulder and held him tightly and kissed his neck & fuzzy shoulders & smelled his hair. He was awake and very still and perfectly content to let me love him. These are my favorite moments. Now it's later in the night after a feeding, and I lay him on my chest. He reaches out his right arm and rests his hand on my shoulder, intentionally so. Completely on purpose his hand rests there, holding onto me. He needs me and heaven knows I need him.

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Wyatt does this epic back bend/stretch every time after he eats, and I just want to bottle it up and have it last forever it's so darn darling.


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I lifted him up to burp him but instead he went totally limp. This is rare. Usually he stays awake while switching sides, but this time he surrendered and lay there on my chest perfectly still for 15 seconds. I felt his steady breaths and put my hand on the back of his head. Those are the moments I wish I could save for later. He woke up not long after, ready to eat some more. 

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Also there was a time when I had just woken up & just started nursing Wyatt when I recollected a dream I had just had: Had a dream that we were out doing something as a family. We had 2 little kids and we were walking in a museum-like hallway and for whatever reason I was being kind of grumpy. I didn't want to be there and I must have been vocalizing that to Aaron, because he said to me: "Just be happy!" Normally I would have gotten defensive, but instead I smiled with all my might and got my 2 babies to giggle as I chased them down the hallway. And my family was happy, just because I chose to be.  



*PHOTOS TAKEN WHILE NURSING WYATT AFTER CHURCH ON SUNDAY. 

11 comments:

  1. Such a beautiful posts full of memories to cherish for years. And kuddos to you for nursing so gracefully while fully clothed!

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  2. These are so precious, and I can relate to a lot of these! Wouldn't mind my baby sleeping through the night, gotta be honest, but I frequently have these tender moments during our mid-night feedings. So sweet.

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  3. What a great idea to write down these moments! You will definitely cherish them when nursing is said and done someday. The nursing relationship changes so much from month to month. Even in a couple of months you'll have fun reading back to this time and seeing how much his nursing habits have changed, etc. Nursing was one of the most special times of during the days/nights for my son & I. We nursed until age two and I cherished that bonding and snuggling time (now miss it terribly). I would be up in the middle of the night just him and I and I would always think of all the other mothers around the world doing the same thing. Sort of like a like underground club. :) I agree with you about it being so challenging at times but the rewards far outweigh the challenges. It is one of the things I am proudest of.

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  4. ahhh i cannot wait to meet this little guy next month!!!!!!! yayaya!

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  5. Words cannot describe how sweet and precious it is you have these moments written down! It's so easy to forget, and these are the type of things I want to remember about my sweet baby forever!

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  6. What beautiful photographs and memories and thoughts to share. The last one sounds like such a perfect dream to experience. Just be happy. I love it!
    Thank you for sharing! Can't wait to have my own little quiet one on one moments with my dear sweet baby whenever the time may be :)
    xo TJ

    http://www.hislittlelady.com

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  7. so beautiful. And look at you, you're a nursing pro!! You don't even need a nursing cover!

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  8. So beautiful. Love these photos. So classy!

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  9. These words and pictures are so touching and lovely. Your little guy is just the cutest, and you make such a wonderful mom!!

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  10. those are such beautiful thoughts/moments. i feel like i should have written more with wesley. i'm glad this is such a beautiful thing for you!

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